The Majestic Mount Shasta- this is where it all started for me. This time last year, Corey Goode held his first public speaking event called the Mount Shasta Secret Space Program conference. This is where I met soul family that would later form into a dynamic team that seemed destined to meet. We definitely felt we had been preparing all of our lives for these moments, and for an impact on each other, and the world.
Last year my life was in an absolute upheaval. Many of my soul family also conveyed that they had gone-and were going through similar radical and sudden life changes. The Mountain welcomed us with loving and open arms- thus beginning our healing process.
Now looking back, the unpredictable circumstances around me continue to swirl about frantically. The intensity of the circumstances may have not changed, however my internal strength has come to surface full force. I am in the flow more than ever, and am being held, or rather carried by life in a beautiful array of chance and synchronicity.
Corey Goode’s words, “We are the ones we have been waiting for” struck me with such depth, and activated something within me and also many others. Although for many years in my counseling practices I have taught clients self reliance, self-empowerment, and the importance of inward control, I found myself just as or more lost, grasping, and holding on, resisting change and giving up my power. I was hiding, not wanting to be seen, scared of the mission before me that was laying dormant in my subconscious.
Inner Childhood Wounds
What changed? I finally started doing the inner work and seeing the patterns and positions I time and time placed myself in. It all started with sticking around another week at Shasta last year and attending the Stargate Experience Academy intensive- where amazingly the focus and theme was on healing the inner child.
I realized that I needed much work in this area when we were asked to do an exercise imagining ourselves as a little child. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t see her, and I didn’t know what she looked like. I was so far removed from her due to having to grow up very fast with an alcoholic father who was absent most of my life and in and out of prison, and an overworked and very depressed single mother. During a very spiritual experience recently, it was downloaded to me that I am actually my mother’s mother-and one of my missions here on earth is to take care of her.. now wrap your head around that! I was born being an adult.
Interestingly, I had a very profound conversation with a friend at the Eclipse conference this weekend along the lines of this topic-about children offering their service in the form of being born of certain parents to “save their parent’s lives.” I intuit many of the current teenagers, adolescents, children, and even infants today are not only here to serve as light and love bearers and change-bringers to the masses, they are here to assist their parents in coping with the rapid world changes and give their parents’ life meaning- thus “saving their life.”
For more information on incarnation, I highly recommend researching the Law of One.
The above conversation was sparked through honest and vulnerable dialogue about the divine feminine, transparency, honesty, and being real with each other. This woman and I had a beautiful moment where I was able to share my hurts, wounds, and disappointments in not having children in my life at this time- something I have always wanted. I confessed I often struggled with jealously towards women who are in the role of wife and mother, which at times leads to internal bitterness and victimhood inside myself. She in turn discussed her jealous feelings towards me and other single women, being that we are so “free”, not tied down, and can do what we want. Through this intimate and transparent conversation, we were truly able to understand each other- she saw, felt, and understood the severe longing, sadness, and loneliness that has colored most of my life. I truly understood her crippling guilt, shame, and insecurities she often felt that come with the role and responsibilities of being a mother.
The truth is we all have our share of hardships, tragedies, and challenges that are equally difficult, no matter what circumstance we find ourselves in, no matter what karma there is to work out, and no matter what incarnational contracts we have agreed to. Having honest dialogue is what 4th density community is about. This is how we become One, and we are well on our way.
Ra on 4th Density:
“Approximations of positive statements: it is a plane of a type of bipedal vehicle which is much denser and more full of life; it is a plane wherein one is aware of the thoughts of other-selves; it is a plane where one is aware of the vibrations of other-selves; it is a plane of compassion and understanding of the sorrows of third density; it is a plane striving towards wisdom or light; it is a plane wherein individual differences are pronounced although automatically harmonized by group consensus.”
The Power of Meditation
What also changed within me since last year is that I begin to trust, connect to my divinity, see the interconnectedness of all, and connect intimately to my Creator (my definition of Creator encompasses my star family, higher self, angels..ect). I did this through daily meditation that first started out with just 10 minutes per day, eventually building up to 45 minutes a day. Once you even attempt to go within, your helpers will put energy behind it, and I guarantee you will start feeling supported and held by the universe through signs and synchronicities.
Meditation and inner work is so difficult, especially when we live in a society that encourages numbing and quick fixes, and constant distraction. We must continue to rise above distraction and our ego.
Workshop- From Cosmic Disclosure to Cosmic Composure
In my workshop discussing our new Post Disclosure Mental Health Initiative, I informed how the Ego (False self) is a platform to view our world and it controls what we can and cannot accept-and I discussed the difficulty in changing these deeply imbedded egoic patterns. The ego clings tight to belief systems and is not interested at all in the truth, however only in what is familiar. Many during this great shift will be clinging tight to their egos, to the familiar, and what they know and it is most important to meet them where they are at with patience and compassion. Most likely if you are a healer, or are awakened, you have had your ego shattered through a dark night of the soul that has turned your world around. About 5 years ago this process started for me. If I type out all that happened to me-all of the bizarre and dark events, you would think I was writing a fictitious thriller/ sci-fi novel!
I have a feeling you went through the same intensities. We agreed to do this mission. We agreed in loving service to be the ones to go through the dark night of the soul first, to complete the Shaman’s journey to the underwood, and to rise again so we can share our light, our skills, and our knowing in order to assist others with love and compassion in finding balance and to bridge the gap between today and a new cosmic tomorrow. I was absolutely in awe and humbled by the outpouring of healers and practitioners willing to heed this call. I met so many who resonated with this project and I am truly honored to work right alongside each of you.
Once again, my life is influx! I just got back to San Fran yesterday morning, and am packing my things up for my next major move. I will be traveling Sunday the 27th to the Boulder area for a few days, then back to San Francisco to finish packing and putting my things in storage, then I am off to Oklahoma to visit family for a couple of weeks. I am excited to announce that I will be moving to the Boulder area permanently on September 15th. It is amazing how many of us are starting new chapters in our lives at this time heeding the soul’s call, going with the flow of the universe, and trusting with unconditional love in the bigger cosmic picture.
It is indeed a busy time full of change, however I know intrinsically I am beautifully held, and exactly where I need to be. I so pray that you feel this way too during your shifts, rapid changes, and transitions. Thank you so much for all who have reached out to me since the Eclipse conference. I will be responding fully to all of your emails about the Disclosure Support initiative asap and am very eager to get in touch with you to share, dialogue, plan, and to get this great work going!
All my love,
Vivian Davis, MA